Jessee;

Shit night. My mind is quite unwell. Lotta screaming and yelling and running. I know where this is gonna end me

This is the most ive weighed and maintain it. It freaks the shit outta me and i feel more suicidal then ever. Its okay thou cause i dont get anxious much around food anymore and stuff. But this weight has GOT to go. Life is mysterious and painful.

Sometimes you gotta be your own hero

I was in hospital monday night. So scared I was gonna die, I was sooo sick. Getting better though. But hating everything.

I cant eat or drink because it hurts so much. Why does my body have to hate me =(

And one day it will all make sense. But it doesnt, because that day is not today.

Life doesnt make sense. People dont understand. Thoughts are harsh. Body is shutting down =’(

Almost got admitted today! Scary stuff. Glad I didn’t and I’m home thou. But I may need to go in, but I hope not!

And down to Westmead for my weekly clinic -_- They’re putting my beta blockers up. I hate food,weight,clinic,talking,hospitals, everything =/

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